Lack of sleep and thereof…

Just woke up around 11:30 AM today. Missed church as well. It was one of those days yesterday I suppose. There are times when out of the blue my thinking kicks in. Its a bad habit that I’ve tried to avoid but I guess I can’t change that overnight. I couldn’t sleep a wink until 5 AM. Actually, throughout the whole day yesterday I began thinking as soon as I woke up and fixed some of my papers for some jobs. As always I was asking myself what the hell was I doing. Why am I on this Earth? Why do I do what I do?

The answer came simple. Too simple that I don’t know how to proceed. I was re-watching Code Geass R1. An Anime series that had become pending over a year and a half ago. I never continued it because I got pre-occupied with something else. I never thought that an answer would be in one of the episodes. Mao… one of the villans. He was so caught up and infatuated with C.C. that he lost the purpose in his own life. His drive was there but it was the wrong way. In the end he was bested by Lelouch. He was bested because he was too confident of what he could do. He was bested because he thought that what he knew could protect him forever. And he was bested because while though doing action, he was an optimist at heart. I looked at myself at the mirror and I realized how similar I was to him.

If I do not change. I will destroy myself. I need to let go…

Passing by

Its a real breather to see a place you’ve been to. A few days ago I passed by the OBAP office to grab my long awaited final check. I went to the bank to deposit and on my way, I passed by a little place that I had fond memories of.

I’m glad I got to visit it again, though I’m sad that I might not be able to see it too often anymore. It’s a good thing I took this picture though. It’s gonna be one for the scrapbooks.

A new year post

Fireworks at SM Mall of Asia

I can finally update my blog! So much for hoping to update before 2008 ended. I was pretty much hooked up with many activities. Had to plan for the Youth Ministry’s year end outing. Had to go to Enchanted Kingdom since my Step-Aunt gave us free tickets (she works there as a manager of the food court). And finally, our yearly tradition, on January 1 we have a grand family reunion. And now after all that, I get my first fever of the year lol. Lack of sleep plus the unusual cold weather has somehow awoken my dormant colds and gave me a bit of a soar throat. Anyway, I’m feeling better now.

Watch New Year SM MOA 2009 in Faith Videos  |  View More Free Videos Online at Veoh.com

And here’s a video of the Fireworks display I took during New Year’s at SM Mall of Asia.

I’d like to keep this post short as much as possible because I tend to go off on many tangents when I blog so for starters. My resolutions are to first find a fraking JOB! Yes! I’m still jobless thanks to TeleTech who has been keeping me waiting. Anyway, if I still don’t get called to my final interview I’ll be taking up that offer at Dell or Convergys. Next, to blog at least 3 times a week. I’ve noticed in the past that I only blog when I want to and end up missing writing down important stuff.

The simple 2008 recap:
1. Resigned from Outblaze Asia Pacific.
2. It was a really good gaming year for the PS3 with exclusives like Metal Gear Solid 4, Valkyria Chronicles, LittleBigPlanet, Resistance 2, Wipeout HD and the launch of Home.
3. The year of my depression. <font color=”black”I’ll go. It’s a little late, but I’ll go to where you are, too.

So, I’m looking forward to this year and what it brings. May God bless us all and keep an eye on us not only for this year but for the years to come as we still walk this Earth.