Alone in the rain

It’s been raining the past week and I can’t help but get emotional about it. I always loved the rain but I really never told anyone the real reason behind it. It’s the closest thing to snow. For a guy who lives in the tropics, some find this weird but that’s who I am. I haven’t given up hope though. I still believe that I will one day go to a place where I can feel, see and touch snow. A dream of my mother’s now mine.

Its funny that despite all that has happened in the past, one could not forget nor easily sway away the time when things were different. People come and go and eventually they forget that one memory that they so cherished once upon a time. As karma makes its full circle, years later they realize how dear this memory is.

Life is really a mysterious thing…

The Right Time

I’ve stayed with the company a while now. I’ve been with it during its infancy, when it was more of a consultantcy than a real coorporation. In tha past I’ve learned to shrug their shortcomings. They usually blamed me or any of my hard working co-workers faults that they themselves had unknowingly committed. Eventually, they went to far in my case.

It all started a month ago when I was tasked to do make a working test site that ran on Drupal. I was given a deadline so I went ahead and enthusiastically finished it. My only problem was the test site I made was on a local server. I needed to transfer it to one of our online test servers.  

Below is what happened. In numbered form… which pisses me a lot:

1. I had no admin rights to the server so I asked the guys over at our Hong Kong office to create the subdomain for me as well as the SQL databases.

2. They’ve created it but I kept getting some SQL errors. I redownloaded a fresh Drupal install pack but it didn’t help. The SQL socket on the server was obviously blocking access to the Drupal installer. I could have easily corrected it but I didn’t have access to this stupid server.

3. After a few hundred emails, they finally take care of it. But here is the annoying thing… They fraking give me access on the day of the deadline and at a late hour when quitting time was near. There was no way I was going to finish the migration of the test site on overtime alone. 

4. I instead setup remote access to our local site and give it to the project leads, explaining to them that the numb skull guy handling the server was holding me up. The project lead confirms that he can access remotely. I’m safe for now.

5. After 2 days. I finally complete the migration of the test site with the help of a colleague who I am close friends with at the Hong Kong office. 

6. I freaking get a stupid memo from the HR guy saying that I aggrivated the project manager for being late. I mean WTF??? They have been holding me up for who knows how long and now they place the blame on me?

Sigh… I should have bailed out of the company when I had the chance. I should be working as a Supervisor or even a Manager at Dell right now but I threw that away. I guess my own mistakes come to haunt me. Karma…